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I’ve slowly been able to get my anxiety back under control, but I still feel a little bit of it at night when I think, “Ugh, I have to wake up in 8 hours and work all over again!” I kind of feel like I’m going in a circle during this time and I’m not going anywhere, but when I’m not anxious I like where I am and what I do.

Right now I do partly miss university for a few things. I miss taking classes, taking notes, etc. But I also miss the freedom of waking up later than 8AM and only having to be somewhere for 50ish minutes then leaving and doing whatever until my next class.

I was thinking about going back to school to become a teacher, but I wasn’t sure if I was covered by student loans to take it, otherwise I definitely can’t afford it myself.

Because of my anxiety, I am feeling a lot more tired recently, especially today. Have you ever felt so tired that it almost makes you feel nauseous? That’s basically how I’m feeling today. I have the fan on at my desk to keep me chilled and somewhat awake.

I have a good amount of sleep, more than most people my age. I sleep between 10:30-11:30PM and wake up at 8:10AM. Yet that still never feels enough for me. I feel like I need at least 12 hours of sleep a day to function semi-properly.

I keep promising myself I’d take a nap during one of my breaks or when I get home, but it never happens. Then when I look at the clock, it’s already 9PM. The days seem to be zooming by now, and I am not looking forward to snow and blistering cold weather.

My first student loan payment came out yesterday, so thank my bank for overdraft -.-” I missed days last week so my check this week is less than my student loan payment. Plus I have Christmas to worry about, which I will most likely be talking about in another post.